" Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here, we should Dance "

New Do...

My b-day is next week so I got my hair done today. I'm blonder than usually, but I'm digging it!

Lawana Blackwell

"The hatred you're carrying is a live coal in your heart - far more damaging to yourself than to them."

IDK Anymore....

I've found out this week that some people are not who you think they are. The ones you believe care for you hurt and lie to you. I have been very hurt this week by a friend. I am no longer friends with him. He did something to me that was so hurtful and I will never forget. I will eventually forgive I never hold grudges, but our friendship is over. I have been let down and hurt a lot lately I'm sick to death of it.

I have learned who my true friends are and I am so thankful for them. I will be OK, but right now I am very hurt and so disappointed. I need to start thinking about me and putting me first. I need to stop thinking about how I can please others and try to please myself. I am making a change and setting my standers higher. Wish me luck...

Henry Miller

"Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself."

Gandhi...

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." Mahatma Gandhi

George Washington....

"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."

ME!

Five Things you Probably didn't know about me...

Uno. I was adopted when I was 6 months old by the greatest parents in the world I have 2 half sisters and one half brother. Also have a sister and brother from my mom and dad.

2. When I get super excited about something I totally get nauseated I can't help it I have always been that way.

Tr es. I wrote a poem after my brother passed away and it was published in a poetry book.


4. When I was a baby I was very sick when my parents got me, I only weighed 3lbs 5oz when I was born. I had a lot of heart problems and had a heart monitor I also had SIDS. The only thing that my dad could get me to eat was melted ice cream to this day I love my ice cream melted.


Cinco. I collect the pink Victoria Secret Dogs I just love them so much and I also collect cow kitchen stuff. I know I am a dork, but I love them both so much.


5 Fabulous things I love to SNACK on.

1. Chips & Salsa I love it yummy yummy

2. Cherry Coke Zero & Diet Dr Pepper

3. Sushi mm mm San Francisco,Reno Roll, Tiger, & Godzilla are some of my faves

4. 100 calorie Packs I love them

5. Peanut butter & honey sandwich's w/ a glass of cold milk :)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!

To my Wonderful Mom & Dad YAY YAY 41 years and still going strong. They have taught me so much these 25 years & I could never ever ask for better parents. I love them so so much and I know that they are truly a blessing to have in my life. I know that they miss me dearly and I miss them, but they know that what I am doing is best for me now.

Thank you Dad for all the things that you have taught me that hard work is important and that you always treat people with respect even if they don't respect you back. Thank you for making me learn how to change a tire, oil, and how to check my gages before I could start driving. For teaching me to always be kind to animals because they alone become some of our best friends. Teaching me to ride a bike ride a horse and ride a quad. Being so Hard working and kind so that we could have so much more than you did growing up. Bailing me out of trouble and not giving me a lecture at the time just grateful I was OK. Putting up with my so over dramatic teenage tantrums. Teaching me how to cook and make the best biscuits & gravy ever. Calling me your Sugar Bear and when I got older and would be a brat telling me I was a Sugar Booger. I love you so much and I will always be your little girl that sits on your lap driving :0). Oh and thank you so much for driving me to Phoenix and spending 4 hours helping me pick the perfect prom dress never complaining as I went to store after store then sewing it when it came apart.


Mom Thank you so much for all the things that you have always done for me. Taking care of me while I was sick babying me even when I was older. Teaching me to garden and how to make flowers grow. Getting me out of trouble with dad when he was so so mad at me. I always hated disappointing you both and still can't stand it. Thank your for teaching me how to make the best rice crispies ever and for always letting me lick the spoon. Laying in bed with you in the mornings watching TV and talking I will never forget that. Putting up with my broken hearts and my teenage stubbornness. I am still as stubborn as ever. Teaching me to always be kind to others because you never know whats going on in there life so always be some ones friend and play with everyone. I love you both so much your Daughter Brandi

Yeah I Know Sometimes I'm Nuts...

I am totally enjoying doing the blog thing I am really glad that I decided to jump on the bus. It's kinda like therapy for me just costs a whole lot less which is a good thing since I'm a poor working class gal. So yes I have to admit it I am a Blog stalker. Don't get me wrong I am not a psycho path or anything like that. I just enjoy looking at everyone Else's blogs seeing what everyone is up to.

The chances that if I know you if I went to school with you or I meet you some where a long the lines of my life and you have a blog I have stalked it. I am beginning to see how creepy I am sounding I hope nobody Else feels that way. I just like to catch up with people I have not since or heard from in a very long time days, months, or even years. Blogging is just somewhere that I can vent and cool myself down it makes me feel so much better.

I am the type of person that keeps everything on the inside till I absolutely can't handle it anymore and it all comes pouring out. I know that it isn't healthy, but it is what I do 99.9 % of the time. I really really hate confrontation I can't stand fighting I would rather walk away then fight i t out. Even when I had a boyfriend I would just walk away if we were fighting then after we both cooled down then I would talk. When I do fight back I tend to say things that I could never take back that really really hurt I know words hurt worse sometimes. So that is why I try to avoid it at all costs. I am a pretty mellow person and it takes a lot to make me mad I think I get this from my dad he tends to be that way.

That is why I am very happy that I started to blog I don't know if a lot people read what I write that doesn't really matter to me the fact is that I feel better and to me that is totally worth it.

YAY!~OH...

This is bittersweet since Harry Potter & the Half Blooded Prince is not coming out until JULY 2009~Twilight gets to come out Thanks Giving weekend in its place. I am sad, but happy I love the Harry Potter movies and I am sad that we have to wait another year till it comes out :0(. I am excited though that Twilight is now coming out a couple weeks earlier. Yay Yay I know where I will be Thanks Giving Weekend. I have something to looked foward to next summer Harry Potter.....Well I'm off to DQ to get a Blizzard I haven't been there in forever and a day so I am looking foward to a cool treat :0).

MIDNIGHT SUN....

SO I WAS LOOKING AROUND ON THE STEPHANIE MEYERS WEBSITE, AND I RAN ACROSS MIDNIGHT SUN. I READ THE FIRST CHAPTER THAT SHE HAD POSTED AND I AM LOVING IT. I CAN'T WAIT TILL IT COMES IT, IT WILL BE GREAT AND PROBABLY PRETTY LONG SINCE EDWARD HAS A LOT TO SAY. MIDNIGHT SUN FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DO NOT KNOW IS THE BOOK TWILIGHT, BUT IT IS TOLD FROM EDWARDS POINT OF VIEW INSTEAD OF BELLA. I WILL BE SO EXCITED TO READ IT WHEN IT COMES OUT. GOING TO BUY THE THIRD BOOK ECLIPSE TODAY CAN'T WAIT I DID LOVE NEW MOON AS MUCH AS TWILIGHT. HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT WEEK I AM SOAKING UP THE SUN SHINE.....

MONDAY BLUES....

WELL TODAY WAS MY MONDAY MY WORK WEEK STARTED TODAY I REALLY DO NOT LIKE WED. IF YOU WORKED WHERE I WORKED YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND. SO LAST NIGHT I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP I MUST HAVE WOKEN UP 5 OR 6 TIMES I JUST COULDN'T SLEEP. WHEN MY ALARM CLOCK RANG THIS MORNING IT WAS ALL I COULD DO NOT TO CHUCK IT OUT THE WINDOW.

ANYWAYS I AM AT WORK AND I AM FALLING ASLEEP I CAN BARELY STAY AWAKE. FINALLY I DECIDED I AM GOING TO GO HOME EARLY, SO I GET HOME AND DECIDED TO LAY DOWN WRONG. I TURNED ON THE TV AND THE NOTEBOOK WAS ON. I JUST LOVE THAT MOVIE SO SO MUCH. I'M WATCHING IT AND CRYING LIKE A BIG BABY BECAUSE IT ALWAYS MAKES ME CRY.

I'M SITTING THERE THINKING TO MYSELF HOW WONDERFUL IT WOULD BE TO HAVE SOMEONE LOVE YOU THAT MUCH. TO LAUGH WITH YOU AND CRY WITH FIGHT WITH YOU AND MAKE UP WITH . I LOVE MY SINGLE LIFE AND I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, BUT SOMETIMES I MISS THE SMALL THINGS. SOMEONE TO LAUGH WITH AND SHARE MY DAY WITH SOMEONE TO COOK SUNDY BREAKFAST WITH. TAKING WALKS UNDER THE STARS AND CRULING UP ON THE COUCH WATCHING A MOVIE. I MISS DATE NIGHT AND BBQ TOGETHER LEAVING NOTES AND PLAYING FOOTIES UNDER THE TABLE.

I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I WOULD NEVER WANT TO BE WITH ONE OF MY EXES EVER AGAIN. ITS JUST SOMEDAYS MORE THAN OTHERS I GET REALLY LONELY. I KNOW THAT SOMEWHERE OUT THERE, THERE IS SOMEONE FOR ME. I GAVE UP TRYING AND I GUESS I AM LEAVING IT UP TO FATE. I'M REALLY NOT SURE WHERE I AM GOING WITH THIS, BUT LIKE I SAID I HAVE THE MONDAY BLUES.

HAIR DAYS

A couple people have asked to see how long my hair is so here is a picture. Its kinda hard to take a picture of the back of yourself so I did my best. I just am not ready to part with my hair yet I am sure I will when I have kids.

After high school I went to get my hair done one day on my lunch break at Miss Dinah's and I decided to cut it all off. My mom and dad both were so upset at me and my mom cried and cried. So It took me a long long time to get it this long again so I just can't cut it yet.

Summer Lake Fun........

So I have some great friends where I live and we like to go to the lake its been kinda warm so going to the lake is great. The sad part is that they keep draining the lake so its getting lower and lower.

We go to the lake yesterday and by the way I was exhausted from the night before that was so so long and a lot of drama happend. So I couldn't sleep so we just decided to go to the lake. The lake is so so swallow that you can walk way way out in it.

Were having a great time relaxing playing in the water good times then my one such friend, decides that we should have a mudd throwing fight. Yeah me trying not to get my hair wet so it doesn't tangle and me not wanting to get my face in the water because of my contacts. So yeah I lost I lost the mudd contest and I lost my contact lences. I had mudd well not mudd sand in my ears, eyes, bra area, and all threw my hair. Now granted I did have a good time but I started kinda being a baby.

I have very long thick hair my hair is almost down to my butt now. So me having to pick all of the sand out of my hair was not so fun let me tell you. I think I did just now get all of the sand out of my ears. I would have taken pictures, but I have yet to by camera and I didn't take my blackberry with me in the water so no pictures sorry. I was covered in sand mudd all over down to my toes awww good summer fun.

Ok so I am off to catch up on reading I have a had a very busy couple of days so not much time to read till now.......

Today I Remember....

Today I remember a great man the best big brother so in love with his little sister man. My big brother I miss him so much each day although I know that he is in a better place. I can't beleive it has been ten years since we lost him, I will never forget the day that the sheriff came to us and told he was gone. It has been hard on my dad and my mom the most its a struggle everyday. The pain never gets easier and the missing them never stops, but as they do say time heals all wounds. I want to honor my brother he was hard working and loved is family. When I was younger I will never forget how we use to leave notes for each other it always made me feel so special. I Love him so much and I know that heavenly father is taking good care of my dear brother and that he watches over me everyday.

OMG.....

So I finished reading Twilight I loved it so much and I couldn't get enough, even when I was at work all I could think was I want to go home and finish reading. Now I am just waiting for my paycheck to hit the bank and I am off to buy New Moon I can't wait. Almost everyone of my friends at work is reading it now.

I looked at the movie trailer today Bella didn't look anything like what I had pictured in my mind but that is how it goes the same thing happened when Harry Potter came out none of the characters looked how my mind interpreted them. That is why an imagination is so great I see things one way and others see them another fascinating.

Well a few more hours then I am off to the store I could go when I get off work tomorrow, but I don't want to wait till then. I have decided each pay check I will buy the next book that way it gives me something to look forward to. Anyways can't wait and I get kinda bored at home sometimes, and reading a great book always helps.

Yay Yay!

So I found out at work today that we are getting of cost of living raise, its not much but hey don't look a gift horse in the mouth right. Well I am glad for it anyways it will help out with the bills and rent and such. So I just thought I would share. Hope everyone is having a great week :0).

Stephanie Meyer

OK so maybe I have been living under a rock or something or maybe I am just blind, but I had no idea about these wonderful books till the other day. Yeah I am a moron sometimes and what makes me a bigger moron is that I work at Amazon.com so the chances of me seeing this book are huge, but in my defence I see millions maybe billions of books everyday so each one starts looking about the same.

OK so I am so in love I only put it down long enough for this blog other than that I am totally hooked on this great book. I did make the huge mistake of clicking on the movie trailer shouldn't have done that. I closed it right away because I have already decided what the characters look like in my mind and don't want to spoil the image I have came up with.

Anyways, I am sure that you other very in with the know people that you are, are saying to yourself DUH BRANDI WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN well I know I know I am again feeling like a moron. So as I said before I am totally in love and can't wait to read the rest of these great novels.

Royal Bliss

There's this Band I LOVE from Salt Lake City ROYAL BLISS. If you have never heard them you really should there music is amazing and music sometimes is the only thing that gets me threw the day. Check um out if you get the chance.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_LjPZ6DM_lQ

Concerned

I have a friend who tonight called me in tears. I am very worried about this person and wish I could jump on a plane and run to them if I could I would but I just can't. I want to go so bad and I am just so worried and upset that I can't be there for them. I know there is nothing I can say to them to make them feel better but just know I am here and I love you very much. Whatever happens I will be here and in the long run it will be ok.

OH YEAH

I JUST DISCOVERED A NEW LOVE STARBUCKS DOULBEsHots w/ GINSENG I Tried the VANILLA ONE AND I AM SO IN LOVEEEEEEE. Just Thought I would share :)

At Last...

So it has finally came my weekend is here I am pretty happy about that. I have had a lot of draw backs this week and I am on my last nerve. I have been grouchy and irritable and just plain pmsing. I am going to cook myself dinner tonight though cooking usually makes feel better. It really is sad that I barely ever do it anymore and I use to do it everyday. Baking as well I use to bake every Sunday it was like my stress reliever. I guess when you bake though you tend to eat every last one of the brownies or cookies. Maybe I will bake some bread tomorrow and get some jam from the store that just may make me in a better mood. Sometimes its good my room mate is gone so much because he would have had to deal with my bitchiness and I don't want him to think I am a total psychopath.


My birthday is coming up soon and I am so not excited about turning 26 years old where has time gone. When I look in the mirror I see wrinkles that use to not be there puff eyes that use to not exist. My wild years are catching up to me so fast. I have aches and pains and am so not as skinny as I use to be. I guess when you eat what you want that happens. Last year I was pretty excited I jumped on the weight watcher bus and ended up loosing 60lbs but this summer I think I gained a bit of it back. It all came back in different places oh well at least all my smaller clothes I bought last year still fit.


I think I may go buy a new book Monday I haven't made a trip to Reno lately so I think its time. Plus I am almost out of makeup I just love Bare Minerals so much it lasts forever and I don't have to replace it for at least 6 months. A roam around Sephora is just what I need plus its right by American Eagle so maybe a shopping day is just what I need I haven't gone in forever so we will see.